Lost Causes

So if you like Greys Anatomy as much as I do then you may have heard the phrase Lost cause. A lost cause is when there is no hope of the person getting better. Now it is rare that you will hear someone say these words because they know no one wants to hear it like that. Instead they say they are doing everything they can but it doesn't look too good. Well right now in my life I feel like so many of my friendships, even ones I thought were best friends, are lost causes. So last summer I had a friend who I considered my best friend, but I don't think we are that anymore, we are barely friends now. Through trips with other people and other stuff I feel like she has replaced me. We had a moment this summer where I thought we reconnected but I dont know. The people she has replaced me with all have stuff to offer in their friendship that is more than I can and that doesn't help. Honestly I don't find it fair because the people who take her from me I feel can tell they are doing it plus they all already have their best friends so why take mine? There was also this guy who I had liked on in off since third grade all throughout middle. Goe moved away after middle school but we still talked. I've told him he's my best guy friend and I told him that out of all guys I liked him the most and he has even told me he likes me back. We talk all the time and he said . Lately though he hasn't been answering my texts. There are so many reasons that he can't but at the same time I cant help but think maybe he doesn't want to. It sucks because I do have one person who told me first that we are best friends and that it will always be that way but I cant focus on the fact that I have that because these others are getting to me. It also doesn't help that I've always been jealous and wanted my friends to myself even when I was like 5. Though in my defense their friends would always say things about me and tell my best friend to stop focusing on me. So here I am now 11 years later the same way and still dealing with those people. To relate it back to Grey's I am the surgeon doing all they can my friendship is on that surgical table and all these other people are the things attacking my patients insides.